Week 9 and 10 Eating Disorder Treatment Update (Sam)

Rainy Fall Day

How It’s going

I hesitated to write this update because these past few weeks have been a struggle and not much new has happened. I had my usual biweekly weigh in, dietitian appointment and weekly therapy appointments. I did have a small increase in my meal plan and have been continuing to challenge fear foods. So far, I find eating fear foods a lot less difficult then eating the volume of food I need to eat. Also, our schedule has been disturbed with mom going back to work. We have been waking up later which often leads to skipped snacks. Further, there are now more meals and snacks that I need to serve myself and I find it difficult to eat everything I’m supposed to. Fortunately, we have a plan now to get back on track. Finally, with these changes, I had one breakfast that was particularly challenging, and it led to some tension between mom and me. She gave me a sudden increase without telling me beforehand and I was not prepared for it. I made it through the meal, but it was a hard day.

Personal Affirmations

Besides the changes above things have been relatively quiet. I have been mostly working on school, affirmations, and self care. One night I went out for dinner with colleagues from work to celebrate the retirement of a co-worker. It felt good to get out and I really enjoyed the evening.

Mushroom Ravioli

How I Feel

A Pinch of Sunshine

I’m struggling. Especially after the one challenging meal everything has been difficult. I feel like no matter what I do I’m not good enough. I feel like I’m wrong for thinking the way I do. I also don’t have the motivation I need. I’m scared to move forward, and I’m scared to go backwards. Everyone says recovery gets harder before things get better and I think that is where I am now. I just need to keep going.

Current Goals

• Weight restoration

• Continue to be trusting, open and honest regarding recovery

• Follow my meal plan as best I can